DUBLIN, IRELAND: In a heartbreaking video that is believed to be Sinead O'Connor's final message to fans before her death at the age of 56, the Irish singer emotionally discussed the profound impact her teenage son's suicide had on her. The poignant footage was shared on July 9, as she candidly addressed her difficult experiences while speaking to her fans from inside her apartment.
Tragically, O'Connor's death came after the loss of her 17-year-old son, Shane, who took his life in January 2022, having managed to escape from a hospital while he was under suicide watch. In what might be her final released video, O'Connor vulnerably revealed the physical and emotional toll Shane's death had taken on her.
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She acknowledged, "I look like s*** either way, which is why I didn't want to make a video. But you know the way your kid unfortunately passing away - it isn't good for one's body, or soul to be fair." Despite the heartache she endured, O'Connor tried to steer the focus away from her grief and proceeded to give her fans a brief tour of her flat. Among other things, she showed a bunch of flowers a friend had given her, as well as her guitar hanging on the wall, which she hoped to use to write "some tunes."
'I am lost in the bardo without him!'
She captioned the video, "Hey, some folks been asking I make video to prove identity .. Now, I've been up all night listening to Hindu Aestheticism books on YouTube." Sinead O'Connor's last-ever tweet, posted on July 17, included a picture of her beloved son Shane, accompanied by a heart-wrenching caption that expressed the deep loss she felt. She wrote, "Been living as an undead night creature since. He was the love of my life, the lamp of my soul. We were one soul in two halves. He was the only person who ever loved me unconditionally. I am lost in the bardo without him."
In her final days, O'Connor also shared Spotify links to several melancholic and heartbreaking songs, including one she dedicated to "all mothers of Suicided children." At the time of her death, O'Connor, who had changed her name to Shuhada' Sadaqat in 2018 after converting to Islam, was believed to be dividing her time between Co Roscommon, Ireland, and London. Following her passing, O'Connor's family released a statement, "It is with great sadness that we announce the passing of our beloved Sinéad. Her family and friends are devastated and have requested privacy at this very difficult time."